I was not trying to minimize what the OP went through, but rape is a violent crime that often effects victims in horrific ways for the rest of their lives.

Doctors are often in a position of power over us. They decide the meds we can take, and often are involved in decisions that can effect our financial well being as well. When they perform a surgery or procedure that is the catalyst for RSD, there can be many confusing emotions brought into the relationship. I am empathetic to all these things, and have struggled with many of these issues myself at one point or another.

When you don't have meds, treatments, or strategies to bring enough pain relief so that you're not experiencing constant, high level pain, I think it's very easy to become overwhelmed. I've been there.