Name is kristina im 24, here is my strange but true story.

I was a cake decorator at Vons. While i was making butter cream i was pushing the solid 50lb block of icing into the bucket of a commercial mixer " meaning its big" and it only fits in the bucket if the paddle that mixes it is positioned a certain way. Ive done this many times before i manually moved the paddle and i crushed my left hand between the paddle and the bowl keep in mind the space is less than an inch wide. it sounded like every bone in my hand was broken. I was in shock i had to collect my self and move the paddle back off of my hand. i took it out and it was bleeding from my palm and the top of my hand. i ran to the front of the store and quietly told the first co worker i seen that i had hurt my self bad. as she ran to the phone to page a manager i started crying i couldnt believe what had just happend. i had done it so many times before and did not get hurt. i got taken to some urgent care center they said i was FINE. i went back to work a few days later. i went back to the dr my self and told him somethings wrong my hand feels really weird. he gave me light duty. three months later my hand turns purple and i tell my manager that this isnt right im going to see the dr again. he sends me to a hand specialist. he gives me PT and accupuncture and then doesnt see me for months. i request a new dr. she tells me THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. she gives me a cortazone shot in my ring finger and gives me PT also. the PT is so intense i cant take it. the PT notices that i had been complaining about my shoulder hurting and it being hot all the time. like its on fire. she tells me that i need to make it clear to the Dr that it is my shoulder now that is hurting. so i go to the dr and tell her look im not *edit* crazy im young and i want to work but there is seriously something wrong. i told her my fore arm my upper arm and my shoulder up to my neck feel like they are burning. she tells me its because i hold my arm close to my body and that i need to use it more...and releases me back to work. i was so ****** off when she turned around and told me well if your going to get mad ill change it to light duty instead of full duty...why would she say that? anyway i go back to work after 8 months of being out. i start my cakes i do 80 of them " thats normal work for a Cake decorator" and i do my normal stuff. im off the next day... talk about pain i couldnt get out of bed i wanted to go to the ER i was in intense pain. i go to work the next day i life one tray of cakes and i start to cry. my manager noticed that i was struggling and asked me to leave that it wasnt safe. so i requested a QME appointment. the dr says that i have symptoms of CRPS so he sends me to a specialist. they do x-days of my arm neck and back. he said that im not crazy and that he agrees with the QME dr that they need to look into that. So last week after a year and a half of thinking im crazy i get diagnosed with CRPS type2 and its getting worse. i havent started pain management yet i have an appointment on the 24th and im nervous. i missed my last one due to anxiety. im depressed and just so lost. im taking tremadol and i cant sleep. my mother actually committed suicide when i was 15 she sufferd from fybromialgia for 6 years and couldnt take anymore. this reminds me of all that i witnessed when i was a teen. she was on so many meds shed sleep all the time. and i dont wana be like that. im freakin out my gf and its starting to freak me out.



kristina