What you just did, by writing to us will help. You are not alone. People on this site will care. You will make some friends, and find others who have your condition. Don't give up or give in, NT will be here for you. Just keep writing out your feelings and know that others here experience some of the same issues. In fact I don't know anyone who hasn't been on a crying spree now and then. Things get overwhelming at times with medical conditions. I wish I were you neighbor, so that you have someone by you. I came here several years ago, really in a bad way. I got help here, and never left. You are welcome to talk to me anytime. I am F and 60 years old. I have cervial issues, and a bunch of other icky stuff. I can tell you from experience, I was happy to meet the people on NT. Keep in touch. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie