Stormy,

Welcome to the group. Many of us have had bouts of major depression. RSD is a life changer with no doubt. The good news is that you are now not alone. We here will help you through the good times and the bad if you allow us to.
Just remember nothing is worse then taking your own life. You will also find many of us are on antidepressent's as well. Just a suggestion, ask your dr. for a breakthrough medication as well.

Personally, i am now on 6 meds and have 2 breakthrough.Please keep contact with people here and make friends. (and remember God as a purpose for all of us.)