I still am thinking about you. I know that you are grieving. At some point your tears will dry, but you still will need alot of time to feel better. Minky is with scruffy, drinking now from the same water bowl. I am sure they have met by now. If the thumb picture is minky, I have to say, she was beautiful. I felt sick at first too, and depressed enough that I didn't want to go on either for those first few weeks. When you have medical problems, and are alone, it is alot to handle. You must be a very good person to have loved minky so well. I always thought if I got to come back and had a choice, I would pick to be a well loved cat, in a home that was what we gave our friends. You are not alone. I am always around, many of my friends are here on NT too. Where is your home? keep in touch and stay strong, ginnie