Thanks all for your replies. I am so glad I listened to myself and went to the ER. A social worker who is filling in for my social worker met me at the ER and sat w me. We did grounding and as I got closer to help the more anxious I got, it was like I knew it was ok to let go because I was in good hands. The doc sent down a psychiatrist and she put me on seroquil. I ate a decent dinner, I will shower take my pill and let this day be over. So now I am on seroquil, lexapro, trazadone, depakote, buspar because I need to be. I am ok w it.