Hey Shelly you have been threw a hell of allot give yourself some MORE Time!!!!!! Dont rush ,things will be getting better for you I know they will.You are in my thoughts and I wish all of the good best things.
Chat at you soon Till then take care and be easy on yourself girl .Have a nap and a goodie snack when no one is around! You deserve it .Kudos to you!
Peace
BMW...Tina