I completely understand your frustration. I miss the"good" days when I was normal. I am so depresssed lately and can't find a way out of the funk. I am grateful for what I do have, as I am sure you are too, but it is still so hard. Even more so when you have kids (u mentioned you had to get up with them)

My thoughts are going out to you. I am hoping you find an answer, sorry I couldn't give one as it seems I am getting more questions than answers in my recovery too.