Milo
Talk Talk Talk about it!! This is a SAFE place to do so!!
I am so sorry for your loss.
WHen I lost my Dad ( not to suicide) my Significant Other at the time , told me after I was home a week to get over it!!! No one has a right to tell you how to greive.
Please continue to post and read here....I think you will find some comfort in the words and in the support you will find.