Amy,
Welcome to the boards!
We're all on this boat together and I feel badly for you having to struggle for so many years. I've only had this for 3 months now and couldn't imagine going through what you have. You must've felt so alone.
Good news, you're not alone! There are so many ppl here with knowledge and understanding and can be a strength to you.
Feel free to post any questions or share what you're going through we're all here to help.
My best to you,
Kelly