Originally Posted by alt1268

Polarisgold,

first I want to welcome you to the group. Second, obviously you have some faith in your background, so you must believe that GOD has a plan for all of us and I don't believe it is for us to leave here before our time.

I understand the pain and the feeling of everyday impending doom. When I reached my bottom I finally got put on an antidepressent.

I am glad you got a pm appt. coming up, there is lots of med options out there. Also I am on a rollabout because mine is primary in my right ankle. This helps a great deal. and has kept me active and able to get around outside my home.

You are doing the right thing by reaching out to people who understand what you are going through. Please don't go through with it. It is as you (not in so many words) put it, but it is selfish and your wife and daughter would be hurt so very deeply.
WE are here for you.