pulling my self apart any which way but up. my med needs to work faster. had a rough day . hubby mad he doesn't undrstand he spent all day with me but still i was sad. it's not you i told hime it's me my meds and then i didn't change my patch on time wich pulled me even further down. i don't men to be like this but i can not help how i feelicalled my doc but it was to late they were close dat 4:30 it was five when i tried to call. so so much for today i guess tomorrow i will feel better. one good thing comes when i am sad writting. hubby called me later and explained he was upset because i was so upset and he hated to leave for work with me like that. so from now on no more late meds we'll ask for help. daughter had something to do after school today couldn't bring my self to take her being around a bunch of people.


pulling apart at the semes not knowing the way to in between....desrtoying my self bit by bit .....no feelings just regret. sadness overwhelems is this truley how i should feel?-shelly