I sure hope you can get the help. What you discribed sounds like torture. Your doctor did not have a soul to turn you away. Every human should be allowed to have some normal body function, especially in normal elimiminations. Seems so unfair. I prolapesed years ago, and could not "go" normal either. It was horrible. Please let me and NT know if one of those doctors recomended can help you. You are in my prayers. ginnie