How would you psychologically if you did not have the syndrome?

Personally, I was afraid of death and illness because I did not know if it was realy horrible or not, but i knew it will happen one day.

I had to live without this anxiety. It was impossible. But being dropped low enough in the disease made ​​me spent a large part of anxiety.

My question is, do you think our friends in good health fear the illness and death like me before ?

I know it's strange but that's it. In a certain sens, i was trying to defy death. I didn't listen to first signs of pain because of it, i think. I pushed myself to defy death... Like Jesus, i wanted to go in the world of the dead, and returning alive without the fear..