lily sweety, you did the right thing. you reached out for help and we are here for you.

you aren't alone. some of us here have lost family members and friends. we know your pain. we know how it feels to think you could never have those thoughts...and then the grief hits you so hard..there they are.

but i a big difference lily...you know the pain of having ben left. you have what it takes to get through this. you have the strength to reach out. that takes guts!

call the support number lily. they are awesome. they will listen. really hear you like we do. or got to :
http://www.suicidehotline.com/

we have a sticky on what you should do if you are alone and thinking of suicide:

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=238

lily...if you are reading and want to go into the chatroom here, send me a pm. i can chat the night away with you.