Originally Posted by Zenda

Thanks. It is so bad at night when I have trouble sleeping. I am exhausted from trying to distract myself and from not sleeping. I want quiet time but the quiet time seems to just let the compulsive thoughts take over.

I spent a lot of time on various sites last night. It helped and I finally fell asleep at about 4am. Another day down. I am getting out during the day and Socialising. The suicidal thoughts play in the background the entire time. So tiring. I feel myself getting ground down.