Dearheart, I'm one with a chemical imbalance in my brain. Going to a therapist HELPS, but without medication, I want to die! I HAVE to have medication or else I'm just miserable! I've been like this ever since I was a small child. I don't remember ever NOT feeling like this.
I've been on antidepressants for probably close to 40 years now. I take it twice a day. It makes me feel "normal" whatever that is. I dont know what normal is, so I guess it must be "okay." I feel good.
So PLEASE -- have your doctor put you on medication. Remember that for most antidepressants, it takes about 6 weeks before they take effect, so do NOT stop taking them before they start working! They WILL WORK. Just be patient. The only one I found that worked quicker was Cymbalta and that took only 2-3 weeks.
I wish you the very best. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee