I relate so well to the exhaustion...I don't know how many people think i am just lazy. You do write eloquently. Does that exhaust you too or is there a strong force still within you that needs expression? Your skills of communication are so powerful and as Mari says so eloquent.
My intuition says eventually you will get to a much better place with the help of the right medications. Right now you need to be without stress of any kind and just try to take care of yourself as best you can without feeling lazy or selfish. You have a very full plate. Recovery happens so slowly....but it happens....
I will reread your posts. Keep on opening up...We care and are so glad you found this forum.
Bobby