Starr,

Different SSRI's effect different people different ways. Nobody can predict how you will respond.

Maybe you would respond better to a different SSRT.

What steps have you taken to accept you current limitations?

Changing the way you choose to respond to your limitations will make 2 improvements. You will feel less stress and you will give your brain a better opportunity to recover.

Maybe the Serenity Prayer will help you.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

My best to you.