Sorry to hear your ex/husband is suffering so. You obviously have strength and intelligence as you recognize you need help. What you read may be scary but that does not mean it is your future.

I once met a young boy, at one of my childrens bday parties. He had a medical issue in is brain. I don't remember what it was but it was degenerative and life long. He was trying his darndest to shoot a basketball but his motorskills were shot to h**l.

He was with a friend of his parents and all I could hear was her telling him to stop trying he couldn't do it. He looked at me and I told him use your good hand to shoot support with your other hand and let the ball roll off your fingers.

He shoots and the ball just drops right in. I leaned over looked him in the eye and told him don't ever let anyone tell you what you can't do. You find out for yourself. Hes grown now and in colledge in DC.

Look for help when you need it. Don't let someone else decide your future, you live it. It might not be easy but anything worthwile has some difficulty.

Hope you both feel better.