Aw, dear Saffy....I can only reiterate what Mark has already said. I understand that feeling of worthlessness. I think it's something that many of us who have disabilities go through. But we are PRECIOUS in God's sight! We are the apple of His eye! He cares for you, and we do, as well. There's an old expression, "bloom where you're planted." It basically means, no matter what kinds of craziness life throws at you, just dig in and be the best that you can be. Give an uplifting word or hug whenever you can (which you do). Pray for someone who's going through a difficult time. Get outside and take some deep breaths of refreshing air while soaking up some sunshine. I know it all sounds so corny, but it works. At least it works for me.

Praying for you, and sending warm hugs your way,
Jan