Life can be tough at times and yes we all feel at the end of out tether at times. I remember feeling like you do many times in the past. But you know depression is a terrible thing and plays havoc with our thoughts.

Have you spoken with your Dr saffy. Explain how you feel and maybe he/she will give you some antidepressants. Because it definitely sounds like you are suffering with depression. And why wouldn't you be. I remember when I had it nothing would lift me. There was no light at the end of the tunnel. Everything at that time just seemed to be going against me. And naturally your independence is being taken away with tootle being gone. But that's just a blip. Didn't I read your due an appointment in August. Only a few days away.

Please go see your Dr. And I bet in a week or so you will look back and think that things can only get better

Do it. Do it today okay