I dont think it would be worth it... I mean, to die for "that".... I know what Im saying because my father has another family.... I just discovered a couple of years ago I have half brothers and sisters.... he lives with mom because like mom said, they are now like friends.... good friends... and mom forgave him for making this "mistake" years before.... I felt like dying too... my family was not what I thought it was... hurt like h e ll BUT... my life is more than that you know....

Ok, my point is.... (before I start to write and write and we end with a very long message), YOUR life is way more important and worth it than your husband, his problems, his mistakes, his cruelty....

Read your post again.... why exactly would you like to die ?? We dont know what nice things the future might bring you....

Oh, I have to run, but, I will keep checking how are you doing ok ??

Love you !!!