Dear Cathybean
I can pm you about ways to reduce your pain and know that you are not alone with you personal thoughts. 100 years ago many people would be lying in bed praying for sweet death, beging God to take them away.
Today even with chronic/degenerative disease there is hope. I have several medical conditions. I have reached maximum medical improvement and now my care is paliative. And that care keeps me functioing as best I can. I also use yoga and craniosacral techniques/therapy!
Sincerely,
Happiedasiy