Am visiting my mother today. So I am playing normal but not inside. Had a great week at an enlightenment intensive seminar from which I decided that my mood is low and I got a referral to a new psychiatrist. Will probably mean yet another drug trial but fact is I cannot keep living like this. So we shall see. Gotta go. Will be back online later tonight as I am struggling. Mom doesn't need to know right now. I shall be back later for a good chat with whomever is still here. Thanks all!