Hey thanks everyone. I will be calling my doc this am to find out if the referral to the. ES psychiatrist has gone through then making a decision about whether to go to hospital. I have had such bad experiences there. But yeah I am aware that the alternative is pretty untenable too. I did not go to the chat room last night because I forgot that I could now that I am not monitored. Duh. Certainly will in future. Or maybe right now. I am not really 'puter savvy. Lol!