you always appear to be literate but i understand how you feel you don't measure up to how you used to feel. I feel the same way and wonder if the trade off is worth it because the medications don't stabilize me when i am under stress. You don't seem to have any trouble for word searching and you are very fast. You must have been something else when you weren't drugged. You had previously mentioned that they caused you to lose your creativity. rats.
bobby