Hi everyone! Your outpouring really has helped me - thank you thank you thank you!

The kitty litter is changed (whew! and eeeewwww!)

Thank you all for sharing your prespectives. Thelma - you are so right... I am repeating history and altho I felt I learned my lesson in futilty - I truly thought this time would be different. I actually think that what I learned from my experiences here have been very helpful in understanding where people's anger might come from. Sadly, though, I didn't realize I don't have the energy to save the floundering.

Abuse, in any form, is unacceptable. Yep, Jo, this is major burnout... and a place I've never been. KathyM - I wish it was air that filled me and not fat - lol... but I love your input and understanding.

I truly look forward to the day I can walk in that office, pack up my desk and say Adios Amigos... or whatever...

today I'm off to a rehearsal in the afternoon then a performance tonight... my apartment is half clean and my spirits have lifted tremendously! thanks to you guys and gals.

Hugs to you all