you have to tell yourself that this too shall pass. suffering is the pits. it seems once we are in it it seems endless but it isn't but it can go on and on. can you think of God as your protector and try to focus on that and that he is taking care of you? I know it doesn't feel like that but maybe if you focus you might feel it soon.
take care of yourself and i feel for you. i am there too.
bobby