Thank you. I appreciate all of the good advice. I'm going to try to rest this afternoon,and keep in mind that this isn't my fault. I have this strange guilt that this could be my fault. This strange false guilt thing hits me too.

Allot of emotions seem to be rolled up in this mental health disorder. I don't understand why it comes,and goes. I forget how bad it can feel in between attacks. I never feel free from this illness,but when it gets worse like this,it catches me by surprise.

Going through a roller coaster ride of fear,and other hurtful emotions have been a concern,and struggle for most of my life now. I don't understand why this grips me like it does. This part of it seems to be the obsession that only calms down when it wants to. The Luvox helps with the obsessional part of my illness.

The dark feeling of deep depression has let up a bit. All of these mental health issues have let up a bit. I thank you all for helping me through this. BF