My heart is with you dear Eva. A new school can be pretty overwhelming and I'm sure she is feeling it. I share in your tears too. I actually cried (as in bawling!) the minute I got out of the school doors after enrolling my twin boys - seniors! I was glad I stayed composed while IN the school!
I'm not near ready for my 'babies' to be heading toward graduating.
The thing that really caught my eye in your post was this sense of fear you describe. ME TOO! I've been getting these anxiety attacks and it has to do with several things, but alot of it has to do with the 'unknown'......not knowing what the future holds - for my boys, my job, etc etc etc.
Yesterdays sermon at church really hit home for me and I am trying real hard to hang on to THAT, rather than let my own fears and emotions take the lead.
Basically it was about how 'we' tend to make our problems and concerns bigger by continuing to dwell on them. Rather, let's magnify God instead of our fears! Make HIM bigger.
I really REALLY need to soak this in and act on it because these anxiety attacks are for the birds! I wake up with them sometimes!
And these are things we know already, but sometimes we just need to stand in agreement with one another for that extra strength. Let's both stand on the scripture of what 2 Tim 1:7 says - "God has NOT given us a spirit of fear, instead, we have power, love and soundness of mind"
When I start to get that awful feeling of fear/anxiety, I go to my room and curl up for a bit praying for that soundness of mind and praising His Name.
Sometimes it's just not that easy I know. Our human nature wants to take the lead and that's when things get out of hand.
Rest in God's Peace dear Eva and so will I. I continue to pray peace over everybody here....
CAring Deeply,
Rae
