Oh, Dear,

How absolutely awful. How many times and how many ways do you have to get away from the ex. ? ?

It is really ok that you are scared. Fear helps us be careful. Fear talks to us.


Is there a way you can stay out of Costco? I shop at a tiny grocery store that is part of a huge chain. This chain offers more service than other grocery stores and the prices are a little more. I like having the extra service in case I need help. Most of the time I do not need help, but in a service oriented store, I welcome the help.

I have not been to Costcos but I am been to SAMS a handful of times -- it is too busy, too huge for walking, and most importantly, it has too much stimulation. I have to come home and rest from that much torture.

Also, I only shop at my tiny neighbor hood store during off hours -- 10:00 am, 3:30 pm, 9:30 pm --- times when the costomers are not around and staff can be attentive. Occassionally random people come up to me but I smile and look down. Sometimes I pretend I do not see them and keep going. I have perfected the whole look of "I do not see you so I am going to go on about my business."

What is your dog wearing? Does your dog have a shirt or something on that says."SERVICE DOG or Working Dog.
Maybe you need a sign that says I get angry easily, leave me the heck a lone. Many days i need a sign like that.

I avoid eye contact when I am out in public so that no one tries to say hello, ask a dumb question, or offer to help. I want to be a lone in public.


Anyway, these are some quick thoughts. Reconsider your grocery store.

I am sorry that the RECON stuff seems to be back in your life. Stay away. Stay completely away from anyone who remotely has a connection with your ex.
Keep yourself safe emotionally, physically, mentally, spritually.

Mari