Originally Posted by RubyQ_30

I am a wife,mother of 3,student,and survivor. Running across these support groups have brought me comfort knowing Im not alone. I had a car accident 8yrs ago which fractured my spine in 2 places (while 3mos pregnant with my son). I had to learn to walk again while carrying a 9lb baby. the pain was always there but several yrs later I was hit with a pain I never knew could be real. I had ruptured a disc..SITTING!
It took several months,test,drs but finally had my discectomy. I was cured! Or so I thought! Within 6 months the pain was back. Once again several drs,test,months later I was diagnosed with everything under the sun. Then it happened..My insurance was CUT!GONE!POOF!
I am currently in PM but everyday I pray that the pain will not just be masked but cured. The dr says I need yet another discectomy,scar tissue removed,and an additional part of my spine shaved down. But how could I afford that?
I smile in front of my family,I hide the pain, I get angry with them,I cry FOR them and what they have to go through. I am lost. I think about my husband who lives his every hour loving me and making sure Im okay. But all I can think is that he has a 30yr wife that has to be taken care of..will he be here in 10yrs?Will I be an embarassment to my children if I get to the point I cant walk? I dont think any of this is true..but the thought is still there. Thank you for giving me the chance to vent and to read all of your amazing stories.