I would rather be dead than have this, sorry folks, but the whole thing sucks, and no one in my family gives a rats **** if i live or die, oh well, lying there, they want me to go to work coz hubby doesnt work. He said he doesnt care about my pain, he doesnt care if i have pain. And right now, i dont care either, coz i just want to take more and more drugs till i cant feel the pain in my body. Is that weird, or is that normal? the whole thing stinks, and i hate it, i hate the tiredness, i hate the pain and i hate not feeling normal anymore. Good luck to all of you who still feel ok. I will probably not see this posted, i guess i am feeling pretty bad today. i guess that is normal too, good and bad days, but i have to go back to work full time and put on the bright smile and yeah sure, all great, and yeah i am doing wonderful, and really i just want to scream and shout that this stinks and i hate it, and i hate my husband for not caring, and my daughters never ask me either ... so i was only diagnosed a few weeks ago and already no one cares a **** what happens, i hve to suck it up princess, put on the bright face... i dont want to.