Next time I go into my pain doc. I am going to bring up my fears. The trouble is the kind of medication I am on, you can't break in half. Morphine ER goes down usually in 15mg. doses. I so do not want to be on as much as I am on. The depencancy is there, and that is just the way it is. I am holding steady nothing more, nothing less right now. I did several activities I never thought I could do again, (short ones) and that convinced me, to try and lower the morphine once again. I had no additional pain from the activity. Yes I am afraid to do anything. I also have pre-cancer in my throat, and there is no way I could hold down any job, standing or sitting. I can't look up or down well all. So this does leave the patient in fear, as we have been talking about. I don't want to live my life every day in bed either. Like you, I have good and bad days. Being "forced" to take more medication simply because of the fear of SS. is like a police state. I think if it came to it, I would again go before a judge. I do not like being controlled by the fear of the health situation. I don't have an answer either.
Just lowering the med. isn't real fun. Does social security even know how hard it is to withdraw? I don't think so.
Bobby, this whole issue with the health care, private, or medicare/medicade is out of hand. I think maybe they are going broke, and wish to get as many people off the rolls they can, even if they need the health care. I also see people that are in desperate need of medicare, being denied with very very serious conditions. I know they have their rules and all, but those who sit in judgement, will someday be patients themselves. I don't know anyone who isn't a bit nervous about health care. I am sorry you are going through these kinds of issues with your health too. You are also right, that I am honest. 99% of the people with health issues are. Those in true need should not be made to fear as we have subjected to, just to live your life decently. Just do the best you can do Bobby. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers too. ginnie