I am okay. Been really down. Started st johns wort and 5-htp on advice of doc to tide me over until my OCTOBER psychiatrist appt. keeping busy. Not hospitalized yet. Came close. Visiting family right now. Was pretty good last two days. Feel the spiral happening again. Planning a party for Saturday. Wondering if I will be there or not. Such a drag this. Feel soooo good. Then don't. Not staying in my head much though so that is good. And asking for help when I need to. It's all good. Thanks all.