Thanks for the advice...I'm afraid the counselor would call to have me locked up or send him/her into a state of panic. This would be contrary to my beliefs and intent. Acceptance is the only thing I'm clinging to and have a self realization that this might be all for naught...which makes me fearful of my own thought processes. Vicious cycle indeed. I'll keep a stiff upper lip and tow the line. Sympathy is the last thing I'm looking for....just looking for a way to grasp the straws of sanity and keep it going for the loved ones in my life. Chatting with you is great but it might be keeping me on the topic too long. I'll talk more later.
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Will