Pretty powerful words and can definitely relate. I'm currently having a very difficult time with my relationship and also face the internal battle every day of battling PCS. I don't like to use the term battling but that's exactly what it is.

I'm not willing to accept this is who I am now because if it is, I'm screwed. I can't live a happy life like this. No one has any idea of the pain I go through(besides other people that suffer similar symptoms) making it that much worse that I fight it alone. If another person tells me it's all in my head I'm going to lose it.

I'm starting to meditate daily and learn some Tai Chi techniques my Uncle passed down to me when I was young in order to help with wrestling(definitely suffered at least 1 bad concussion from this). I fear I may never recover and long for the day that I wake up with a claer head and not think about my PCS.

Why me and what if scenarious plague my thoughts. How do I rid these negative thoughts from my mind? What purpose do they serve? I would like to give in to the universe and go with the flow of the river like the Toaist way, but I don't like where the river is going.

Why is it that we don't appreciate health until it get's taking away?