Dear Addy
I don't have words of wisdom..I just wanted to say that i hope you are able to stop struggling soon and make the right choice .
The "right choice" for your peace of mind,that is.
I gave you and Doody thanks,even though everyone has made some very good points.
I wanted to let ya'll know that you have helped me understand some things{in my life} in reading your posts!
So,i wanted to thank you both...
Take things one day at a time,even though you need to think about your future..Don't spend all of your "time off"dwelling too hard on it.Afterall,your suppose to be resting!
Take care