I don't know where to begin...I am a complete mess at the moment.

I saw my GP today to get some diazepam to help me with the stress of my father's sudden illness. He started asking me all these questions like "do you have trouble concentrating?" and "do you feel lethargic all the time?" and "is your speech slow?"

So I answered yes and he started going on about depression and writing me an prescription for anti-depressants. My thinking was, I DIDN'T FEEL DEPRESSED BEFORE THE INJURY, and who wouldn't feel depressed with everything that's happene since? I told him I couldn't even afford the anti depressants since i cant work from the accident.

I spoke to my neurologist who I have seen once for one hour, who diagnose me with a 'moderately severe brain injury' at the time. I told him I'm having trouble controlling my bladder and that my GP thinks I'm depressed. He told me my MRI came back negative so there's "no evidence of a brain injury" and therefore it can't account for my bladder problems. Then he started saying that depression could be accounting for my problems.

I'm so furious. All this talk of depression. I feel miserable because I can't work, I can't sleep because of headaches and I've lost all my friends because I can't talk properly or remember anything. NOT the other way around. Before the accident I was happy, enjoying life, in control, steady job etc etc.

I'm so concerned they're going to start putting this down to depression with will then probably void the insurance claim and not only will I be in severe debt from all of this with my life in ruins, about to have to move to a womens' shelter because I can't pay rent, but I will receive no compensation for the car crash that destroyed everything in my life.

My lawyer told me before how my neurologist doesn't specialise in brain injury but works with patients with Parkinsons Disease so that he wasn't really appropriate for me to see. He's sending me to see someone in London last I heard, hopefully they will be less dismissive of my symptoms. I am going to try to speak to my lawyer again today, see what he thinks of this depression stuff.

So they're now saying its PCS, which is fine, but when I asked if that could account for my bladder he says no. See your GP. My GP tells me it's to do with my head injury.

I don't know what to think/do anymore. This is awful. So sorry, I just need to get it all off my chest before I implode.