yes I did. she is affraid comp will take a picture and we will lose everything. As far as their education on RSD. she has never read anything regarding it. .. I have seen a therapist. and said I am not mentally unhealthy and see,s nothing he can offer.. ha!! as for my diet.. I eat small meals. breakfast an egg or a bowl of cereal(if i remember to eat it at all) lunch, lately it is simple sandwich and fruit. trying to get rid of cold cuts all together so its tuna or PB&J. dinner it is either pasta(small amount) and a fruit a little later or white meat such as pork or chicken with a generous green like salads, spinach green beens, and I snack on nuts fruits etc. with a serving of a no.no when its in the house.
this was a mental leak. I needed to get this down so I could see it and I wanted to share and figured this is the best place to do so.. thank you all for your input I appreciate the responses and connection.
I cannot seem to open up like this really face to face. I spend most of my energy trying to hide the pain . because when it shows every one gets.. well different and uncomfortable. which I of course immediatly pick up on.
Lit love... I am a religious person just really different from others. I dont believe their is a religion that best fits my beliefs. I thank each of you here very much you have all helped me keep it real and together. This forum is the best medicine . with out it I would probably curl up in a corner and disappear.
I try not to let the mind leak but it happens and when it does it comes out as it pops into my head(before I car sort it out and make sense of it) I believe it is time to find a therapist that will actually listen. the stress is piling up, the worry of tomorrow as well I can see that after reading this again and reading your responses. I just hope and pray that my wife is on board.. thanks again all . and I hope you all find tomorrow less painful and your cup overflowing with love and joy..