Lily - right now you are reaching out to strangers.

you ARE that strong (yes, like Christopher Reeve) or you wouldn't be here

recognize and accept this step as courageous, ok?

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I hope that you can find the courage to do the next step - it sounds like you are waiting for something to happen so that you can make your choices... instead, do you think that you could turn that around... ?

I know it takes a ton of energy and I know you don't have it right now.

writing here helps me a ton
sometimes I just read

right now I don't think I am making sense so I have erased a lot of what I wrote...

anyway, hang in there and type away, we're here