MeBP
I wanted to be with my best friend when she passed.
I wanted to be with my father when he passed.
I wanted to be with my mother when she passed.
Turned out, I wasn't there for any of them when they passed. There was nothing I could have done anyway to save them, even if I had been with them at the time.
Sucks, don't it?
Your mom sounded like a wonderful woman. How blessed you were to have a woman like that bring you into the world.