dear GOD

thank you for another day

dear FRIENDS

overwhelmed with BLESSINGS
i want to praise GOD
an awesome GOD
as yesterday my children
my grandchild son-in-law
the only one MIA my boy
i pray he feels still a spark
of the Spirit with HOPE
he is now captured by the
DECEIVER always lurking
i am here for him he knows
that pray he is not doing
heroin something he dab
with one of his mates sat
at my table anytime and
holidays i had no clue
until my boy told me
i am afraid i will loose
him by suicide
please bombard
with prayers
my father committed
suicide sixteen day
after my wedding
he did walk me down
that special walk father
and daughter
in all this i never wanted
a church wedding no one
around after all i was on my
own at seventeen ANYHOW
WHY I SHARED THIS I FORGOT
it was for a reason

back to my day in heaven
everybody in the pool
on a glorious beautiful
sunny day
at one point
all my girls
hugging me gently
it was such a priceless
moment i never want to
forget the feeling
it was a moment i
will not forget
the pool was Spirit filled
for me as i would talk with
persons that are members
i felt the Spirit while speaking
to a fella Frank come to find
the dynamics such as suicide
mental physical sexual emotionally
destroyed at a young age
and he was not an accident
divine intervention
was there with my pool friend
Betty's daughter Frank's girl
a 45 year man father of a gay
son such as myself
he watched as my family
left together and as they
left walking the pool side
to exit they would turn ever
so many steps to wave goodbye
and throw kisses as i returned
the same with tears streaming
down my face and he watched
me as i was in the pool most
of the time
anyhow we spoke for hours
THANK YOU GOD
it was all your doing
i am BLESSED
as my Faith grows
staying true to myself
i wake up and know
there is something i
need to do for God
or have something
to learn

physically i am feeling poopy
on the inside and because
i need and walk with a cane
so there is a hint
on the outside people
have beautiful comments

and to those who get what
i am experiencing
i am satisfied with the
decision now with proof
it isn't in my head
and he made the situation
so bad my pain has taken
me to thoughts that my
doctors know you get it
glad i made the decision
with my evidence that
my hardware is in fact
compromised and loose
screw can be seen loose
made me believe it
was in my head
my eye when addressing
him was the icing on the
cake
and crying every day
in pain and how much
of my life has been
taken
now i have a lawyer
awaiting to hear from
the firm

my granddaughter
was beside herself
chattering chattering
like a parrot

it was a day in heaven

thanks be to GOD
thy will be done

to all a happy joyous
day yum BBQ

someone who cares