I'll also add that if you are falling into a depression - Seek help.

I have my good days and my bad days and then some really bad days

The really bad days I start pitying myself and I lie in bed for days at a time. The 3 times I've done this I felt worse for it. WAY worse - took me a few weeks to get back to where I was before I "gave up"
Depression does not help the brain heal and its best to address it early on if it is becoming and issue.

I know how hard it can be - I've basically lost all my friends. I live alone and nobody ever visits. It sucks - but I understand and I forgive them - They are "normals" they still take life for granted