Dear Hillary,

I complete understand feeling they way you describe.

You have a good plan for yourself today -- watch tv and listen to the rain.

Going to AA was a good idea --- can you go more often so you can touch base sort of?

There might be other groups you can join:

nami.org -- National Alliance on Mental Illness

http://www.dbsalliance.org -- Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance

meetup.org

other groups that are close to you?

A lot of us with bipolar suffer from lack of sleep.
Tell us about your meds if you want. We might have some ideas.

M