I am less depressed today, just thought you would like to know. And less angry. I know it comes and goes. No doctor ever suggested I had bipolar. I seem to have an overall sadness which sometimes just sinks below the water line into all day crying. I do see a counselor. She has no idea what to do, and I told her I have no idea either but I enjoy talking to her. I would like to take one of those drugs vets take to help Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, because I heard some of them calm memories. But sometimes I can calm the memories just by making some change. I have now made a change from one church congregation to another. The first church had toxic rug cleaner and wouldn't couldn't change it, actually did not believe I had that reaction, a serious reaction which ended my teaching career (a toxic rug with toxic glue in the building). I am now attending a church with no rug.