Thanks so much celeste.
Well, I do have moments I really wish to stop living.
I tried anti depressants, but they wont help against those weird thougts, anxiety, compulsive stuff, etc.
I already drink beer

Doesnt weed has a contra indication with mg? I thought it also made you weaker.
I still have breathing problems everyday, so I dont want them getting worse (it doesnt seem like such a nice way to die)

And, your experience with those benzo's, is that while you were already suffering from mg?