To Celeste,
Thanks, I dont think Im really depressed, it's more episodes of depression. For example, today I woke up totally afraid (of....??) and my head just keeps going and going and going, "what if..... What if...." it's horrible.
I tried everything to get my mind of things, but everything just seems to give me weird thoughts. Hugging my dog gives me thoughts: 'what if he dies'
and Im totally psyched out for hours. Watching television? 'Im not as pretty as that girl / that commercial makes me cry / the news is making me scared / .... '
Listening to music? Overemotional reactions, crying, and thinking I have to make music too! Well, yeah, crazy. So i want something to make my head dizzy, numb, whatever. Just to give me a rest.

I already told my neurologist loads of times, this prednison is making me crazy (note, I also have fysical cushing problems).

To PB, thanks I didnt know that. So that's a real contra indication, those benzo's are.

And what about antipsychoses stuff? Like, haldol or something?