Hi everyone. Thank you all for responding with such kindness and understanding. It is very weird for me to feel so alone even though I know my whole family is going through this.

Luckily my sister and I realized that drinking made us very emotional and we realized that we were making a lot of really stupid decisions under the influence (other than suicide) so we have already cut our drinking right down.

Unfortunately drinking is a big problem throughout my family, grandfather, mother both my sister and I. I know part of the problem is that nobody in family knows how to talk about how we feel so we keep it inside until we have a breakdown of some kind - Getting drunk, getting into a massive fight, something like that.

Does anyone know how I deal with this feeling of sort on numb and angry! I can't seem to get past the anger and I can't work out how else I feel about this whole situation.

Any help will be really appreciated!

P.S. I have very limited access to the net so if I am slow to respond you know why!

Thanks again


SadSam